good morning starshine! :D

and wasn't that what Willy Wonka said in the movie?

haha that was one of the only line I remembered from that movie and it stuck:)

NOT THAT I LIKE JOHNNY DEPP

although he's quite hot haha but abit out of a 17 year old girl's league.

sorry yet hong! haha

wait but he's definitely in a 17 year old girl's league:

:D

LEE MIN HO AKA GU JUN PYO

ultimate bf material!

so anyway im in a good happy bumbly mood today!

because a horrificly tiring day was over

and although a good lot of my brain cells feel as though it has been slaughtered

i still managed to get through it!:):)

ain't that great!haha

no one should ever put hist and econs together.

its a whole new nightmare.

oh and speaking of nightmares..

last week was filled with bizarre dreams that keep linking up

like some drama serial unfolding.it was like dreams on Mon,thurs then sat which were all continuations of each other and the rest were dreamless sleeps.I kept seeing this person who i allegedly was trying not to at our sch's sports complex where he kept trying to talk to me

and it seemed like we're pretty close although we're not in real life

!

i don't know what its supposed to mean.

oh and there was this other dream I had for the second time

where my vision just keep getting grey and distorted and everyone

was moving purposefully somewhere.

oh well.

I guess i should just shrug it off or something since it was a week ago.

and start planning for after jct's

haha:):)

outings with: the 32/09 clique/jolene/sili/lamer and v/popo and jean:DDD

oh and im so goin to watch this:

any takers!!:)

and this:

coming up on 20/08

MY BDAE!!

omg can't wait!

:DDD

and the earth envelopes:)

SLEEP TIGHT

IM OFF TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!

so there goes my plans of blogging today!:(

more in the morning!

hopefully i don't get those dreams again.

cos you got me thinking all over again

take a breath.

decided to take a breather amidst all the stuff catching up on me this past few days:(
been so busy i feel like its all catching in my throat and i can't breath.
or putting my arms around this pillar that's way too huge u can't freaking wrap your arms all around it no matter how hard you try.
makes u feel like what u do just doesn't match up.

ok its not all in a bad way.
just that i can't help shaking off the feeling that im forgetting to do smth really impt
or im bound to forget to do smth.:(

past few days kept having bad dreams too: which i don't believe are a premonition
or watever thesuperstitious call them.
just that it doesn't get one in a very optimistic mood for the day.
they are not exactly bad...actually maybe i just don't know how to react to them.
tell more about it after probably tmr!

TODAY WAS QUITE AWESOME!
never expected bsiness symposium to be so...
oh well but here's the catch: more business proposals and pitching/presentations tmr!
only this time its to really big shots in business i.e. CFO of American Broadcasting Company
gasp!
really hope i don't blank out tmr or start rambbling incoherently :(
updates reaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllll soon!


go on do it: make all those wishes you have to

prequel

irony happens as always

look at my blogging spree and my absence for a whole day following straight after.

haha

i really SHOULDN'T talk too soon.

oh well ,just got home

had my first ever BOD meeting today which left me feeling quite satisfied.

my whole body is like going into hibernation mode now.

that's how tired i am.

still have to rush out a proposal by tmr! though i guess i better finish by tonight in case situations crop up as always.cross my fingers and hope im awake enough to do so.

I hope it really gets approved because even i feel its quite fresh. i can't wait to start the new suggestions rolling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHA it was hilarious today.seriously.brainstorming takes on a whole new idea, and i think now everyone has an inkling of my obsession with infocomm.for reasons that i shan't put up here.it'll only spoil our plan.LOL

ate subway and tried the rainbow cookie.it only upped my happiness scale by a few notches:( should feedback for other flavors to bring in instead.ohoh speaking of happiness scale...... someone really made my day ytd:D

thanks simple fergie HAHA .ohkay i shall not be mean and reveal your folly like i promised to.though you should really thank me from saving you the prospect of impending humiliation. i risk my reputation for you ohkay! good thing i didn't say out where i was from.

oh well ! haha Pearlyn! i understand what you mean now...nevermind i guess i shall know the true meaning of sacrifice after this two years.:DDD Lee Xu Ying shall persevere!:)

ps: Hello to you Simple fergie if you are reading this! lol hi too Jolene.:DDD oh and hi daryl:)

LOOK!

LEE XU YING IS OFFICIALLY ON A BLOGGING SPREE NOW!!

and she remembered how she ate her tang yuen again ytd for supper

and how she became a happier girl after that.

dope could have been in it .

or its probably just her joy pill.

she and her sis made an extended nick name for....

thank you so much! haha you probably know we cnt reveal your name and you'd probably ask us not to anw.i won't disappoint you!do my utmost not to!

(btw heyyy:i don't know how to say this to you and my consolation probably don't mean a thing especially since seeing how things have turned out. but im always there for you ya?

hope you know im talking about you.)

cos you'd let me wish on your shooting star

im not waking up in vegas though:D

katy perry has this new song with an mv which has hope in all its different forms splattered across the screen.

that waking up in vegas song

ohkay maybe not hope.surrealness and novelty probably.

and its what im feeling from last night till now.:D

guess the fact hasn't really sunk in yet and i don't know when it will.ECLUB CAMP WAS A THRILL AND HORRER IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE.

to tell you the truth though,first day was a little bit of a bummer because of the turnout, isn't there nothing more disappointing than to find out that there isn't anyone to enjoy the games you planned?and there was that mere 5 minutes that got my heart sinking down- that 5 minutes at the benches where i thought the result wasn't going to be so good and cheery.srsly i thought she said it as a form of mental preparation for me.

but anw at least MORE THAN LADY GAGA was thrilling and rly did its job of lifting my spirits again.I'LL NEVER LOOK AT LADY GAGA IN THE SAME WAY EVER.she can go and do all the plastic surgery she wants.

and then day 2 of camp came and i was trying not to think about the handover results especially when JUSTIN KEPT SCARING ME AND MY SIS and saying stuff like the world being round and unfairness in relation.then CONCERT CAME AND IT LOOMED SO NEAR IT WAS INEVITABLE.part 2 started off nerve wrecking when the BOD gave us a prequel just to gauge our reaction.

then i just tried to shrug off the fact that i didnt get a tap. it was probably the first time everyone wanted a tap on the back so badly just because it was indicative whether or not you were in the next BOD.

oh well then the actual handover came.AND WE REALISED THEY TRICKED US!

haha ohkay wasn't too thrilled with the initial results because I was appointed marketing director and XQ the pushcart director and both were our third choices.but oh well compare that to the initial expectation of not being in BOD and i thought that one must at least try to be contented with one's lot.So we were all given our handover stuff which we were not yet allowed to open.

but i decided to ask a question then out loud when they asked if we were unhappy with the results.i almost kicked myself for being so impulsive cos i was the only one to ask and my question came out a bit incoherent.

then they went down the row asking us to open our handover stuff one by one.i think i sort of suspected smth amiss again and Ashlyn confirmed my suspicion!She was the first to open and found out that she got handover items for pushcart director and

WE REALISED WE WERE BEING TRICKED AGAIN!

then my sis got the marketing director handover items and i was really happy for her cos it was her first choice.

but where did that leave me then???

finally it was my turn to open but they stopped me and questioned what post i thought i would get,and i said assistant MD cos it was my first choice

and my heart stopped for a moment when i opened and i got managing director handover items!!

!!!:DD

i really wasn't expecting it cos i have no experience heading a cca before but i really must and will do my best though.have to say that im THRILLED too cos it was my second choice:):)

and i've got big shoes to fill

SU LYNNNNNNNNNNNN FTW!:)

THIS POST:

is dedicated to  MS CHANG SU LYNN the awesomest awesome e club mate becauseeeee

she is a fraternal triplet to the identical twins.

i promised her not to say  that her secret desire is to be the triplet of the twins because of obvious reasons no one can deny.HAHA.ain'tno need to say out at all. we understand.lol.

OH .and the matching green shirt says it all.really.

WE LOVE YOU SU LYNN.AND WE KNOW YOU LOVE US TOO:D

This is most depressing.

went downstairs to the kitchen and couldn't find anything i liked to eat.

HUNGRYYYYYYY

and to think i ate dinner quite late.

thought about my REALLY AWESOME lunch this afternoon with my sis.

and the hunger got worse.

haha so oh well lets see if typing about it is going to make the hunger

go away.since I get it off my head and try to stop thinking about it.

WARPED LOGIC.I KNOW.

so anw we had a highly unconventional lunch after THE FILMING in school

after traipsing about aimlessly around macs and along the hawker centre at bedok inter

and wondering why everywhere it seemed was so packed even though its way past lunch.

then us spontaneous twins decided to have tang yuen/glutinous rice balls

for lunch.:)

not a proper meal i guess but considering its made of rice..

and its got the word rice in its name more than accounts for the fact that we did

eat rice for lunch.

right?

AND I DIDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH I MISSED IT

until i took the first mouthful.

heaven.utter bliss i tell you.

there's a reason why it's my favourite dessert:)

and why i really really love it even though i don't eat it often.

in more ways than one

lt was like like like....

did you forget how i looked with specs?haha

Helloooooooooooo

oh wells i have a problem!

many actually.depends on what you would constitute as a problem

or how well you can take situations.

small-scale ones in my context probably don't mean a thing to the next individual

so here goes

my one problem:

I CAN'T FREAKING EXPRESS MYSELF PROPERLY THIS DAYS

and ain't that one big headache in the mind???

its like i cannot find good words to substitute what im feeling

and everything becomes classified as: ok/good/bad/fine.

what is wrong with me.

RATHER :WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS PROBLEM.

its not me its it im almost certain.

just like how they all say :'its not me its you"

it has no boundaries and definitions or even a proper resolution 

if you really think about it.

so im just stuck with it until i come to terms with this fact.

or until i become adequate once again!

anw today was kind of normal.

econs lecture was not as bad cos OHLAYVIA BROUGHT FABULOUS SNACKS

and so the usually sleepy me was kept wide awake.

or at least i looked wide awake,although for all i know i could have just been internally sleeping.

oh and 

watch out for the PARODIES!!!!!!!!!

HAHA WE FILMED THEM TODAY

and i can't reveal much about it cos its supposed to be a secret till later

maybe i'll post it

IT WAS ABSOLUTE FUN.MORE THAN YOU'D EVER KNOW.

haha and......

congratulations anjoline! lol

haha ohkay don't mind me.

and we all felt a tug at our heartstrings

didn't you already know

im such a contradiction its not even funny.

just stupidly absurd.

it was just tuesday when i kept on at how bored i was going to be

and how i would get eventually addicted to the prospect of blogging

and looked what happened.

just shows you can't talk too soon.

yesterday became so flooded with camp planning stuff

that i couldn't even stop to type one measley paragraph.

GGAAAAHHHH

and the fact that im such a noob at blogging is not helping much.

look what happened to my nice pretty blogskin.

went haywire the moment i tried to put my playlist.

CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED!:(

hmmn and...

my sis and i seem to be experiencing the exact same type of situation.

cool in a way i guess but its like a very mirroring hollow effect.

like how you would feel putting your head in a tub of water and attempting to look or move.

slow /helpless/needy.

i should really try to hear what is going on around.

ohlayvia's words came back beckoning to me today:)

im feeling much much better.

getting over that...:):):)

a first for you.

what now

i am supposed to be doing my camp planning

read: supposed to

but im obviously not?

and the time is ticking away so blatantly in front of me

while im still thinking about why i still invariably want to blog?

it catches 

and grows on you ,you know?

in a way?

this better not continue on when term starts.

im not doing what imsupposed to anymore

and it gets worse 

by the year

the months

the hour

and i suddenly become fully conscious of it till now. I don't know why.

thought of the poem i wrote for lit class on last day of term 2.

guess what colour it depicts. haha i think it depicts my mood now:

Those eyes draw you in

Absorber in the most perfect sense

Amazing Grace plays on in the background.

Hueless.

Eyes downcast.

Your breath catching.

the room is silent.

No light at tunnel's end

Dark as a night.oidhche mhath.

Void.

collapsed stars

A thick mask

where your heart is.

go figure

you,you,you,you,you,you.....

i am bored now:(

and this just justifies my claim in the previous posts about how i will spend my hols.

oh well and you know what i do when im bored don't you?

TTM

which isn't going to do me much good.really.

ohkay and i thought about you.and you.AND you.and even YOU.

and i realised i have much to learn and be thankful for.yup even those horrible moments.

so here's what i wanted to say all along-every sentence applies to a different person if you realised.

i...

wish that i'd never seen you in that light.

thought that i could have talked to you more often.

should have just gone straight up to accompany you.

could have been your shoulder for you to lean on.

need to be more receptive towards you.

will continue going on being bestest chummy friends with you:)

hope i didn't give you the wrong signal.

reminded myself to keep in check.

longed for the situation between us to turn out better.

knew you known all along.i did too.

never expected you to look past me.

.............................................

.............................

..............

just wanna see you.

I should be so lucky

hmmn shall give some update on my life up till now

which may not seem all that exciting after all 

now that its laid out in black and white

 not exactly a movie yeah?

but still.

past few weeks was fine .

all the same old usual stuff and school

with some highlights like the choir concert which was

AWESOME

haha.

ohlayvia was so cute in her little dress ,she reminded me of some doll i had when i was young:)

and samyo "proposed" to anjioline!lol

the bad stuff happened in the morning though.im really quite glad it didnt infect the night.

I sustained a cut right smack on my nose for apparently no reason.

you could tell in that photo.

hmmn ok not really no reason.I know how that cut got there but i don't understand why

some board at the pushcard just fell and cut my nose.

It sounds damn weird.

i thought it was gonna cut my eye.seriously:(

and I went for my first ever facial on fri after a loooooong horrible day in sch

felt really disappointed after i missed some impt event and thought i would get cheered up

but NO

the pain is UNFORGETTABLE

i really didnt know they do those kind of things to you for facial

like cut and scrap your skin until blood red

and i emerged from that place looking like some WWII survivor.

AAHHHH

same old; same old

OHKAY

i think i can already guess how my hols are going to turn out at this rate

a few hours into the first day and i feel lethargic already

hopeless case of a battle long gone:(

my mood just fluctuated to way low...

not a very good sign.hmphs

do the hols do this to you? 

i don't think i wanna know.

NEWNEWNEW

heyhey

posting for the first time on this blog:D

wheeeee im feeling high 

for the first time since ....

cnt remember

Attempted consistently blogging for multiple times already and have failed miserably

sad.:(

hope it doesnt happen this time!!!:):)

cross your fingers,now

lalala