won't

Bouts of insanity in class leave me feeling kind of depressed back at home

really love my friends who go insane with me

so much so that at least im conscious im still me.

so many things to catch up with and theres UNNAS tommorow

sitting in front of the computer.

constraints.

you know

I may never find him

what went right

everything;nothing

nothing to be done now...right?

i almost forgot my password.

so that's how I knew it was a loooooong time since I blogged.

so anwwww went around camwhoring and ATTEMPTING to have fun

though we were successful to some extent:)

and we did our take of how one should look in mourning for MJ.

though his demise didn't actually strike a chord in me because

he's just rmb-ered for stupid antics in our time.

i.e his dangling the baby over the railing.

what was he thinking of???????

haha and now thanks to Ms Nansi ,I'll never look at Beyonce in the same way ever again.

jcts were not fun. at all .

not like Mr Chan claimed it was:it may have been for him years ago.

but its definitely not now.

far from it.

unless you argue about perception.

which i think would get neither of us nowhere actually simply because

no one can argue against something so intangible.

ohkay so while there's an unofficial break going on for me now

its not what I thought it would be.

IT DOESNT' FEEL LIKE RESTING AT ALL

because everyother thing that seemed so minute and insignificant

comes back haunting so incessantly that you realise that it was only

miscellanous then but important now.

so it gets quite depressing because there will always be something

popping out even if you don't want it to.

:(((((((((((((((((((((

ohkayyyyyyy

shall not let this be some emo post

haha

I STILL WANT TO GO OUT

GOSH

and especially since some outings have yet to be materialised!D:

Lee Xu Ying needs to stop thinking/worrying/procrastinating and actually start

planning.

especially thinking: just a mere 2 days got me realising what I never saw before

EVER.and I have only myself to blame.

my silly self.

too late too late like they all say.

good morning starshine! :D

and wasn't that what Willy Wonka said in the movie?

haha that was one of the only line I remembered from that movie and it stuck:)

NOT THAT I LIKE JOHNNY DEPP

although he's quite hot haha but abit out of a 17 year old girl's league.

sorry yet hong! haha

wait but he's definitely in a 17 year old girl's league:

:D

LEE MIN HO AKA GU JUN PYO

ultimate bf material!

so anyway im in a good happy bumbly mood today!

because a horrificly tiring day was over

and although a good lot of my brain cells feel as though it has been slaughtered

i still managed to get through it!:):)

ain't that great!haha

no one should ever put hist and econs together.

its a whole new nightmare.

oh and speaking of nightmares..

last week was filled with bizarre dreams that keep linking up

like some drama serial unfolding.it was like dreams on Mon,thurs then sat which were all continuations of each other and the rest were dreamless sleeps.I kept seeing this person who i allegedly was trying not to at our sch's sports complex where he kept trying to talk to me

and it seemed like we're pretty close although we're not in real life

!

i don't know what its supposed to mean.

oh and there was this other dream I had for the second time

where my vision just keep getting grey and distorted and everyone

was moving purposefully somewhere.

oh well.

I guess i should just shrug it off or something since it was a week ago.

and start planning for after jct's

haha:):)

outings with: the 32/09 clique/jolene/sili/lamer and v/popo and jean:DDD

oh and im so goin to watch this:

any takers!!:)

and this:

coming up on 20/08

MY BDAE!!

omg can't wait!

:DDD

and the earth envelopes:)

SLEEP TIGHT

IM OFF TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!

so there goes my plans of blogging today!:(

more in the morning!

hopefully i don't get those dreams again.

cos you got me thinking all over again

take a breath.

decided to take a breather amidst all the stuff catching up on me this past few days:(
been so busy i feel like its all catching in my throat and i can't breath.
or putting my arms around this pillar that's way too huge u can't freaking wrap your arms all around it no matter how hard you try.
makes u feel like what u do just doesn't match up.

ok its not all in a bad way.
just that i can't help shaking off the feeling that im forgetting to do smth really impt
or im bound to forget to do smth.:(

past few days kept having bad dreams too: which i don't believe are a premonition
or watever thesuperstitious call them.
just that it doesn't get one in a very optimistic mood for the day.
they are not exactly bad...actually maybe i just don't know how to react to them.
tell more about it after probably tmr!

TODAY WAS QUITE AWESOME!
never expected bsiness symposium to be so...
oh well but here's the catch: more business proposals and pitching/presentations tmr!
only this time its to really big shots in business i.e. CFO of American Broadcasting Company
gasp!
really hope i don't blank out tmr or start rambbling incoherently :(
updates reaaaaaaaaaaaaaallllllll soon!


go on do it: make all those wishes you have to

prequel

irony happens as always

look at my blogging spree and my absence for a whole day following straight after.

haha

i really SHOULDN'T talk too soon.

oh well ,just got home

had my first ever BOD meeting today which left me feeling quite satisfied.

my whole body is like going into hibernation mode now.

that's how tired i am.

still have to rush out a proposal by tmr! though i guess i better finish by tonight in case situations crop up as always.cross my fingers and hope im awake enough to do so.

I hope it really gets approved because even i feel its quite fresh. i can't wait to start the new suggestions rolling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHA it was hilarious today.seriously.brainstorming takes on a whole new idea, and i think now everyone has an inkling of my obsession with infocomm.for reasons that i shan't put up here.it'll only spoil our plan.LOL

ate subway and tried the rainbow cookie.it only upped my happiness scale by a few notches:( should feedback for other flavors to bring in instead.ohoh speaking of happiness scale...... someone really made my day ytd:D

thanks simple fergie HAHA .ohkay i shall not be mean and reveal your folly like i promised to.though you should really thank me from saving you the prospect of impending humiliation. i risk my reputation for you ohkay! good thing i didn't say out where i was from.

oh well ! haha Pearlyn! i understand what you mean now...nevermind i guess i shall know the true meaning of sacrifice after this two years.:DDD Lee Xu Ying shall persevere!:)

ps: Hello to you Simple fergie if you are reading this! lol hi too Jolene.:DDD oh and hi daryl:)

LOOK!

LEE XU YING IS OFFICIALLY ON A BLOGGING SPREE NOW!!

and she remembered how she ate her tang yuen again ytd for supper

and how she became a happier girl after that.

dope could have been in it .

or its probably just her joy pill.

she and her sis made an extended nick name for....

thank you so much! haha you probably know we cnt reveal your name and you'd probably ask us not to anw.i won't disappoint you!do my utmost not to!

(btw heyyy:i don't know how to say this to you and my consolation probably don't mean a thing especially since seeing how things have turned out. but im always there for you ya?

hope you know im talking about you.)

cos you'd let me wish on your shooting star