oh no
just had a thought
what if like Joanne said what if ......

SORRY SAMYO!
PLS GET WELL SOON!!

indirectly but still can't help feeling abit guilty!:(

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE:DDDD

PART 2
of the series of happy posts.......
is dedicated specially to the Clique!!!!!!!
hmmn haha we need to come up with a name like Joanne said( was reading your blog)

sadly I can't post any pictures.
well but I'll try to adequately express what I have in words.

THANK YOU SO MUCH TO YOU GUYS!
ME AND XUQI HAD AN AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME BDAE
WHICH LEFT ME TOUCHED TTM!
(to the max haha not think too much)

went to the marquee on the morning of 20th August and saw absolutely no traces of our clique.
when the whole lot of them (except Joanne) failed to materialise
we decided to just make our way to the parade square when they burst out in song!

yayyayyayyayyayyay
then they gave us 17 + 3 items to celebrate our turning seventeen!
thanks you guys! so so so thoughtful of you to come up with such a cool concept!!!:DDDD
and I knew my bdae was complete when i saw......while buying ice choc at gd news cafe.
yupyupyupyupyup
haha the Clique knows what I meant!

you see now that words has srsly failed me.

those items are sitting happily on our desks now! i CAN'T WAIT TO USE THEM!!
the facewash/notebook/notepad/shoelaces/clips/saline/jelly crystals/hairband/pen/macho meng/no-bake......
HAHA OMG XQ and I are gonna attempt to no-bake those dessert tmr.
lets hope we don't fail.AT LEAST NOT ULTIMATELY-PHAIL
if not then it would be absurdly embarrassing lol.

THANKS AGAIN SO MUCH!
I HEART YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!!<33333333333333
IT REALLY WAS ONE OF MY HAPPIEEST BDAES EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD


oh and thanks to Jolene for your hug!!!:DDDD
And to Ms Popo aka Liwenn for that really coooooooollll
message at 20:08
haha only popo can think up of something so cool!
you're srsly goin to be one hip granny HAHA
and to V !! lol first msg of the day!AND TO SILI AND YUZHEN
(must watch coco before chanel!!)

oh and BJ don't sad k! really thank you so muc for remembering!
all the best for the O's:DDDDDDDDDDD

THANKS ALL THOSE WHO WISHED ME
YOU REALLY MADE MY DAY!

Say it together now! God is Great!

HAHA THIS IS GOING TO BE SOME SUPERDUPER INSANELY HAPPY POST
for once.

and probably there will be more to come.;):):)
whoosh!!!!!!!!!
(cue the happy quotes )

shall attempt to blog all the events in chronological order
mayb I need 2 posts:D

firstly I wanna thank God for the answer.
I'm not certain at all if thats what He really has for me
but I definately felt something that day.no mistake about that.
and I just want to tell all you people out there that He is one who doesn't forsake you
not in your weakest moments.Certainly not.
and He doesn't ever give you more than you can take.

haha I can't really say out what exactly happened that day because its quite personal
and I don't really want to take out that special element of that private moment.
yet.
but if you ever want to hear something to tell you how great He is.
just ask me to tell you what He has done for me:D

and I also wanna thank Him for the awesome people He has put in my life:)

trytrytry as i might

guess what I'm feeling.
mood fluctuation time.


exciting week going on.awesome events with friend at so many places:D
Lee Xu Ying was a happy girl so many times.

lovely breakfast with Jolene one wed/
jts/econs seminar with Rachelle,Olivia,Jamie/lunch after with Olivia/
meetup with Sili/
Subway with sis and Joanne @city hall after celebration ytd/
Sak's brother's wedding with cg3209 clique/
funfunfun with my favourite ppl in the world

haven't seen Jean yet though;(...we'll make time I promise!

then its home to lit/hist/econs essays,math ws and a hist test on wed to study for
and I got quite upset thinking again because i found another reason why it would not materialise,and why I might stop it before it becomes like that same situation that happened.
It was years ago,and now I'm at the same stage,there's something that just feels wrong
but I don't want to be under the obligation of anyone.

not alot of ppl I could talk to,but I need an opinion i guess.
I just don't know what to do,it's a feeling i hate, this hanging-in-the-air feeling
like you're suspended midway with no inkling of when you'll reach the ground again.

pray for me please.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH BLOGGER

why can't i see my toolbar anymore
when i want to blog


this is like making me write in left hand

its inadequate

won't

Bouts of insanity in class leave me feeling kind of depressed back at home

really love my friends who go insane with me

so much so that at least im conscious im still me.

so many things to catch up with and theres UNNAS tommorow

sitting in front of the computer.

constraints.

you know

I may never find him

what went right

everything;nothing

nothing to be done now...right?

i almost forgot my password.

so that's how I knew it was a loooooong time since I blogged.

so anwwww went around camwhoring and ATTEMPTING to have fun

though we were successful to some extent:)

and we did our take of how one should look in mourning for MJ.

though his demise didn't actually strike a chord in me because

he's just rmb-ered for stupid antics in our time.

i.e his dangling the baby over the railing.

what was he thinking of???????

haha and now thanks to Ms Nansi ,I'll never look at Beyonce in the same way ever again.

jcts were not fun. at all .

not like Mr Chan claimed it was:it may have been for him years ago.

but its definitely not now.

far from it.

unless you argue about perception.

which i think would get neither of us nowhere actually simply because

no one can argue against something so intangible.

ohkay so while there's an unofficial break going on for me now

its not what I thought it would be.

IT DOESNT' FEEL LIKE RESTING AT ALL

because everyother thing that seemed so minute and insignificant

comes back haunting so incessantly that you realise that it was only

miscellanous then but important now.

so it gets quite depressing because there will always be something

popping out even if you don't want it to.

:(((((((((((((((((((((

ohkayyyyyyy

shall not let this be some emo post

haha

I STILL WANT TO GO OUT

GOSH

and especially since some outings have yet to be materialised!D:

Lee Xu Ying needs to stop thinking/worrying/procrastinating and actually start

planning.

especially thinking: just a mere 2 days got me realising what I never saw before

EVER.and I have only myself to blame.

my silly self.

too late too late like they all say.